When You Believe

Many nights we prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hope for a song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer bird
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My hearts so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears
But when youre blinded by your pain
Can't see the way, get through the rain
A small but still, resilient voice
Says hope is very near

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

天使

周末看了《门徒》。基本上觉得不错，尔冬升的风格是我喜欢的。不过我要说的是结尾。阿利在空虚和毒品间徘徊，究竟哪一个更可怕。小女孩从睡梦中醒来，将阿利的注射针筒丢进垃圾箱。当时我想到的就是两个字－－天使。最近看的两部港片都拿小孩扮演天使的角色。我说的前一部是《宝贝计划》。我一直记得那一幕，小宝贝把小手搭在瘫痪了的“人字拖”的老爸手上，老人的表情就像看见了天使。

对错之间，绝望的边缘，谁是你我的天使？

Let it be

这两天为了一件事情，我很愤青。本来要写在这里发泄一下的。后来花了很多时间和老爸讨论，现在心情平静很多了，梳理出一些想法了，一言难尽，没时间多写了。老爷子最后说了一句话，让我想起了下面这首歌。太有名的歌了，Let it be。

Let it be

When I find myself in times of trouble,
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom,
“Let it be.”
And in my hour of darkness,
She is standing right in front of me,
Speaking words of wisdom,
“Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.”
Whisper words of wisdom,
“Let it be.”

And when the broken-hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer,
“Let it be.”
For though they may be parted,
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer,
“Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.”
Yeah, there will be an answer,
“Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.”
Whisper words of wisdom.
“Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.”
Whisper words of wisdom
“Let it be.”

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me.
Shine until tomorrow,
“Let it be.”
I wake up to the sound of music,
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom,
“Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.”
There will be an answer.
“Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.” “Let it be.”
Whisper words of wisdom.
“Let it be.”

阴天

阴天，在不开灯的房间，隐隐觉得窗外有点光。手机离我很远，不知道是几点。好像有条短信，很可能又是垃圾短信。好像醒过几次了，又睡过去，做了一些梦。我开始学会睡懒觉了，因为打开电脑的时间已经是10：30了。昨晚下的电影《怒火救援》可以看了，本来想留着无聊的时候看的。现在就开始吧，我的毛病，好东西藏不住。而且这样的一个早上，窝在床上看电影，音乐从床头两侧的音箱传出来，很享受，不是吗？

这是一部关于爱与复仇的电影。一个退役的杀手，在一个纯真的孩子身上重新找回活着的意义。当有人将这孩子绑架并撕票以后，一个老套的美式英雄主义故事开始了。通常我不喜欢这种单枪匹马，独闯龙潭的故事。好在导演没有过分渲染Danzel Washiton的英勇，整个复仇的过程在忧郁的墨西哥音乐中结束。看完了，印象最深的是小女孩抱着Teddy小熊睡觉是的恬静，和她俏皮的天使般的笑容；其次就是片尾曲，淡淡的，断断续续的。听着这样的音乐，你也能感到当Creasy散手而去时的平静的心情，暴力之后的平静。

好了，跳出这样的气氛吧。刚才用过了午饭，鱼头豆腐汤，美味啊！该我洗碗去了，昨天的晚宴再次肯定了我洗碗的专业程度。洗完了，还有很多事情要做。看完电影才发现，早上收到的不是垃圾短信。

笑话两则

• 卡布奇诺

一天在东方广场约网友MM见面，不想显的太土，约在星巴克。等MM时觉得不买点东西不合适，就到柜台点咖啡。
服务员问：您要点什么？
当天没带眼镜，咖啡厅灯光昏暗，我使劲看价牌，还是看不见........
就说了一句：“看不清哦！”
服务员：“好的，卡布奇诺！”
于是我就喝到了在星巴克的第一杯Cappuccino.........

• Go a head

某公司经理叫秘书转呈公文给老板，“报告老板，下个月欧洲有一批订单，我觉得公司需要带人去和他们开会。”
老板在公文后面短短签下：“Go a head”经理收到之后，马上指示下属买机、拟行程，自己则是整理行李。临出发那天，被秘书挡下来。
秘书：“你要干什么？”
经理：“去欧洲开会啊！”
秘书：“老板有同意吗？”
经理：“老板不是对我说 Go a head吗？”
秘书：“来公司那么久，难道你还不知道老板的英文程度吗？老板的意思是：去个头！”

昨晚正为工作上的事情憋气的时候，收到朋友发来的笑话。笑过之后，更多一份温暖在心头。

The Right path

"... I have come to the crossroads in my days, and I have always known the right path, always, without exception, I knew. But I never took it, you know why? Because it's too damn hard. Now here's Charlie;he's come to the crossroads. And he's chosen a path, it's the right path. It's a path made of principle, that leads to character. Let him continue on his journey. You hold this boy's future in your hands committee! It's a valuable future. Believe me! Don't destroy...protect it...embrace it. It's gonna make you proud some day...I promise."

If you've ever watched <Scent of a Woman>, you would know this is the speech Mr. Slade gave at the end of that movie. I'm not Mr. Slade who, without exception, always knows the right path. But I do know, in most cases. Time and time again, I heard the voice from the bottom of my heart but I didn't follow its instructions. Until one day, I found it too weak to hear any more. I wish when I start to listen to it, and step by step follow it, the voice can come back again. Even though it's hard, I want to take the right path to the future I define for myself.

Difficulty with the simplicity

"....I guess I also re-learned that there are other really important things in life worth progressing in parallel. In fact, when it needs to happen, there is little you can do to stop it; and when it needs to stop, there is little you can do to make anything happen. What makes life complicated is the difficulty we have in accepting such simplicity. We have too much desire for those that don't belong to us or that we don't have. I guess it doesn't matter who we are, we can't have everything. We can only take what's given, as we go. Everything is much more easily said than done...."

这么溜的英文一看就知道不是我写的啦。从Carine的blog里头quote过来。想想最近发生的一些事情，真的觉得无能为力。或许接受它就是最简单的办法。放下！放下！