Blackout

Again, I became speechless on my blog. Being speechless doesn't mean you have nothing to say. It could be that you get too much to say while you don't know where to begin with, or you just don't want to make it public.

Why blog? It's more than a record of the dots in your life. It's also a window to show people, mostly friends, your life status, to help them understand what kind fo personal you're. At least, that's my understanding. Therefore, no surprisingly, you choose what to say and what not to say. Then it counts on two things to have the blog alive - how interesting/boring you life is and how open you are.

Just like most other people, I don't share everything. Even worse, I don't know how to present in a way without going into too much details and still make people understand what I'm going to talk about. "How about your everyday life, anything to talk about?" This the question you might ask and I've asked to myself. Well, it's not too interesting and not too boring either. The problem is I don't always see the dots when it actually shines. Maybe I do find something to write down. It goes away so quickly, just like a blink.

So instead of putting too much bullshit like this post, maybe I should just leave my blog blackout?

The Right path

"... I have come to the crossroads in my days, and I have always known the right path, always, without exception, I knew. But I never took it, you know why? Because it's too damn hard. Now here's Charlie;he's come to the crossroads. And he's chosen a path, it's the right path. It's a path made of principle, that leads to character. Let him continue on his journey. You hold this boy's future in your hands committee! It's a valuable future. Believe me! Don't destroy...protect it...embrace it. It's gonna make you proud some day...I promise."

If you've ever watched <Scent of a Woman>, you would know this is the speech Mr. Slade gave at the end of that movie. I'm not Mr. Slade who, without exception, always knows the right path. But I do know, in most cases. Time and time again, I heard the voice from the bottom of my heart but I didn't follow its instructions. Until one day, I found it too weak to hear any more. I wish when I start to listen to it, and step by step follow it, the voice can come back again. Even though it's hard, I want to take the right path to the future I define for myself.

Difficulty with the simplicity

"....I guess I also re-learned that there are other really important things in life worth progressing in parallel. In fact, when it needs to happen, there is little you can do to stop it; and when it needs to stop, there is little you can do to make anything happen. What makes life complicated is the difficulty we have in accepting such simplicity. We have too much desire for those that don't belong to us or that we don't have. I guess it doesn't matter who we are, we can't have everything. We can only take what's given, as we go. Everything is much more easily said than done...."

这么溜的英文一看就知道不是我写的啦。从Carine的blog里头quote过来。想想最近发生的一些事情，真的觉得无能为力。或许接受它就是最简单的办法。放下！放下！